ONE KETAMINE TRIP

I've done few lines of Ketamine even before. I mean even before this trip. I always thought it was just some kinda tranquilizer and only thing that happens is you feel like morphing, and feeling all liquidy and stuff.. So i never liked Ketamine back then. I never knew about its strong psychedelic effect, and it would take your mind through stages where your mind has never gone before, seeing colors and details of the details of the details of the details. Yap that is gonna be kinda confusing. And there were times when i wished it to stop, because seeing too much of details is too confusing at times. Even if that happens, if you know how to go with the flow and not fight against the kick you are gonna be fine.
  

We found all these new drugs, drugs that helps us to analyze and study our own brain and mind  with our surroundings as well. We got all amazed and excited about these new stuff and how it is effecting our brain and mind. We were trying to find out more about these hallucinogens,   Meditation and other mind altering forms, and started learning about how these things effect and affect our minds, our behavior and the way we look at things, people and our surrounding environment and ya, the way we look at the nature and how we appreciate and respect the nature changed after these experiences.  Along this journey, we came across some very cool  Asian hippies who were living in Singapore. I don't think they do any substance, but they mediate and have the same kinda euphoria and talks about the same meaningful spiritual experiences, just like the one we've gone through.  Raafi made good friends with these peeps, and i think even tried meditating with em. Ya, the more we got closer with these hippies from the Arab Street of Singapore, the more stuff we shared. And they told us about the "K" hole and they said with Ketamine the meditation process would be more easier, we can hit the "chakra" points without much effort. So ya, we just had to buy Ketamine again. 

We never had the chance of doing a bump with these guys, and for me its pretty difficult to hold on to something that gets me high without trying it out. So one early morning, it was around 6 or 7 Singapore time, Raafi and I got ready with a mirror (to crush the crystals more and easy to do lines), and the Ketamine we had. It was his apartment, and our girl friends were also there doing their own thing. Ya back then i was dating someone else and shes not like Mai. Only reason she used to do drugs was because she wanted to be more like me i guess, or be more closer to me. One of those reasons for sure.

Ya, we snorted couple of lines from each nostril. Now our girl friends seems to be moving very fast. Sometimes what they say doesn't make any sense to me as it was too fast for me to grasp. Whoop.. was enjoying that..ehehe.

Suddenly Raafi said "dhombe (big brother), close your eyes and i think i see something when i close mine"

So I did close mine and it seems like i saw a television set with no signals. You know what i mean right??!! I felt like and knew i was about to see something,

so i hurried.." Raafi Raafi, lets do some more lines, i think we might be able to go through that "K hole" everyone is talking about."

We bumped few more lines and we were super high now. And i think Pink Floyd's High Hopes was playing on the stereo.

It was all dark at first, i don't see nothing. I just realized that am inside something so i gotta unzip this thing to come out. So i unzipped it and a very bright bright orange colored light came into my eyes...i couldn't take it, so i just zipped it back and closed it. But now I know, I've realized that am inside a rubber wardrobe with a zip on it, and the bright orange colored light was the sun. As soon as i understood my surrounding, i wasn't scared..i wanted to see the sun.. i wanted to come out. So I came out of that rubber wardrobe thing and it was so, so beautiful. Its just too beautiful to be put in words. The grass was greener, and these certain shades of green aren't the normal green colors you see. Only thing i saw up to the horizon was the green grass, and after that was the sun. The sun was weirdly close, yap it was so close to the earth that it seemed to be so big and bright. 

I looked down on the ground and i realized that the earth is not stable anymore, its gonna blow up any minute now. Fuck..!! i love this place man..and why am i alone while the world is gonna end??!! all these things came rushing to my mind that second. I knew i don't have anytime left to do anything now, i gotta say bye to the earth ASAP..!! I kissed the ground and i flew, i flew up in the sky, just like Hancock flies in the movie. I looked down and saw the earth blowing up into pieces, and the planets around it was also blowing up, the whole of universe was blowing up man, and it was getting closer and closer to me..i had to fly more faster now, and that is exactly what i did.

And suddenly everything went all quiet, i think the music stopped or something, and i saw all these beautiful beautiful clouds, and there was this temple, mosque like place on top of the clouds. I knew i would have to go there, and i knew i would meet god if i go there. I flew closer to the temple, and there he was, its the big man in flesh dude. you know who i saw as god?? remember Disney's animation called "The Little Mermaid". it was Ariel's dad, the guy with the huge beard and all, but i didn't realize it that time. I wanted to meet god, i flew closer and closer to him, without saying anything, and that is only because i didn't know what to say to god. Thank you would be enough??!! I love you would mean anything to him??!! I was just this tiny fly like thing, flying right infront of his big face..and he was looking right into my eyes.

The closer i got, he started changing himself, he started morphing. His mouth grew bigger and wider, his ears grew bigger and pointier, he has started to get all dark, with dark red and black. It looked more like a huge bat like thingy with hones and very much anger, but now am just too close. Fuck fuck..that's the devil in disguise. I knew my mind was gonna go through a bad trip, but i did't wanna wake up. i wanted to see. So just like the hippies has asked us to carry this white, bright ball which can be used as a shield like thing every time we have a bad trip, which would protect us from anything and everything and I had that with me all this time while i was doing all this stuff. I just jumped into my ball and started orbiting around. I tried my best not to look at the devil. And then i woke up..!!!

It was like 15 to 20 minutes in reality, but it felt like i have experienced something for more than i dunno how  long.  I felt really good, i felt like i was reborn again, with so many realization points of my mind been hit. And you know what i realized from that trip of mine??!! i realized that i am still doing something wrong, God, the Higher Power has not accepted me yet. I realized that am still not in the right alignment with what am supposed to do. I gotta change something in my life. that's what i realized from this K trip of mine..!!

The most fascinating and the amazing thing about the Ketamine trip is that, even though we all were tripping out separately and away from each other..just laying down on the floor, WE ALL DID HAVE THE SAME TRIP. It was all the same. Now that's amazing right??!! How our minds got interconnected with each other and showed us the same thing, without us even trying to do so.